Monday, March 15, 2010

"And go away where the grass turns green, and the sky is baby blue..."

This weather lately has been nothing but perfection and being outside as much as possible has been my main priority the past couple of days . I'm finally starting to feel better and shaking this nasty cold I have had for almost two weeks but I have a good feeling that it will be creeping back up after I torture my immune system this Wednesday for St. Patti's Day (I'm aware it's spelled wrong). I'm not really sure what's in store for the day but what I do know it that I got a new bright yellow dress (yes mother, I'm going to wear yellow) to wear. I need to seriously get to working on my tan starting tomorrow because according to my mother since I wasn't even born, "You don't look good in yellow" ...I will forever be traumatized from that.

Isn't it weird how little things like that stick with us through our whole lives? I was watching a recent show (Wife Swap) and the father blatantly stated how he brain washes his daughters about religion, dating, love, you name it. These girls think they have to pray for a husband and then he will basically magically appear for them. Now if that were only true!! To not have to deal with the hassle of dating and to know that the exact man we pray for will just show up someday. As incredible and ideal as that would be, I'd have to opt for the dramatic, exhausting, annoying, stressful trials of dating that my life has lead me down. As much as I used to write about it and want so much to be with someone, I can now sit back and say that I'm glad I went through that faze because I'm really settled and centered with where I'm at right now. I'm working on me, getting my life slowly back in order and just having a blast doing so. I can definitely say when I lay my head on my pillow at night, I'm smiling.

I've got a few trips planned this year and I can't wait for them to start happening!! So many weddings, bridal showers, parties, and little twins to go visit!! My sister and I will be visiting Niagara Falls later this year and I'm so so so excited about it. My lovely little lady Vanessa and her hubby Nick are getting married there and I asked my sister if she wanted to come so we could turn it into a site seeing extravaganza with heel clicker photos like you've never seen! I also want to go to Texas and see the twins my cousin is about to pop out!!! Between Claire's cheeks (my other cousin's baby girl) and those two babies, I need to get to Texas asap!!! Oh and my Aunt Terri will be thrilled to see me of course and make the Chicken Tetrazzini JUST for me! Grand Canyon is on the list as well as Cali to see Jenn. I want to get up to Savannah before the summer is here as well as before it gets super hot and humid outside. My mom, sister and I went last year for July 4th so maybe I'll see if some friends want to get together this year and make a little trip up to party time it and eat some good southern food! Does anyone else agree that Savannah, GA has the best sweet tea on the planet??? I could swim in it! As much as I would love to party on this trip, I would love to sit in one of the Squares on a bench and relax underneath those big beautiful Oak Trees! Miami might be on the list as well as Key West! This time, I will make sure that my Keys trip is not ruined by a hurricane and bad weather, which are technically the same thing I guess. I would love to get up to NY to see a few friends and see the city since I've never been!! And last but not least, the Cheery Blossom Festival in DC! I'm dying to see all of those trees covered in pink flowers! Watch the week I go, the wind will be blowing and they'll all fall off!

Fingers crossed all of my trips happen and go exceptionally well!!

Friday, March 12, 2010

"She's seduced by the sunsets and her new life at hand"

Still as happy as I could possibly be and loving every single aspect of my life right now. In the past 3 months I have met some incredible new people that I am very happy to call my friends as well as come to terms with certain friendships that are better off coming to a close. I love when someone new comes into your life unexpectedly and without knowing it they make everyday seem brighter than the one before. It just makes all of the stress or mishaps that you go through in life seem so insignificant because you look at everything differently from now on.


Have you ever had a friendship seem like more work than need be? I just recently ended a friendship with someone that I knew for many years because of a reason such as that and am still undecided on how I feel about it. With this person everything that was simple and easy was turned into this big ordeal and it was just too exhausting to put with anymore. I felt like every time we did something or went somewhere I couldn't be 100% relaxed because I didn't want to say or do something that she could turn into a dramatic event. I feel awful for basically ending the friendship but I just couldn't do it any longer. Am I the only one who has been through this? She's not a bad person or a horrible friend but she just isn't someone I am choosing to have in my life anymore. I'm not the kind of person who tells someone what they want to hear or sugar coats anything when they ask for advice or my opinion on something. By any means I am not saying that the way I go about things is the correct way but I will say that with this particular person, she would get upset with me when she would ask for advice and I wouldn't tell her what she wanted to hear. I can't put up with that, go to someone who doesn't care about you to tell you what you want to hear because then you'll never learn.

As a very dear friend to me once said "Friendships aren't about making up or getting back together, they're about being friends". (love) I think I should have in the long run sat down with her and probably talked everything out before just saying that "I've had it" ...but I truly don't think it would have done a damn bit of good because we had gone through the same exact issues in the past and nothing changed. I don't think it matters who was at fault in the situation, her or me; we're just better left as casual acquaintances in my eyes. Just as long as we both learn from the situation given to us and move forward with our lives in the best possible way.

Now that I've gotten that out, back to meeting new people and how they can forever change our lives. Some people are ordinary, some people are strange, some are more endearing than they'll ever realize, some are kind and sweet and just special with every word they speak and some are just simply amazing people without ever trying to be. When you can find someone that is all of that in one, you've got someone quite special I think. Whether it be for friendship, romantic purposes or simply an acquaintance, this person is so much more than what meets the eye and to say that it’s exciting... is an understatement. I believe every person who comes into your life, comes for a reason. If he or she is there to never leave or just passing through, the right person will forever leave an impact.

This year has only begun a few months ago but so far it seems to be a great one for me and I could not be in a happier place than I am. The people I have in my life at the moment couldn't be more incredible and the sparkle I that constantly lingers in my eyes wouldn't be there without all of them.