I don't think I have ever been so happy that I am single in my life. The thought of dating someone right now and actually having it work out seems so far fetched that I can't even begin to comprehend how I would go about making it happen.. If I hear "you're such an amazing woman, you're beautiful, you're smart, funny, the most caring person I know" one more time I may wrip my hair out. All of these things I am fully aware of and am a capable of knowing without having a man tell me who obviously doesn't really mean it. If he meant it then whats the problem?? Clearly there are other deep issues set aside that he doesn't want to come forth with because he's affraid of hurting my feelings...and honestly thats fine with me.
If I got money for every man I dated that didn't come back and say "I miss you" or "I messed up" I'd be a rich woman right now. Why does it take me telling a man that Im over him a few weeks after he's ended our "relationship" for him to relize what he had? Green eggs and ham has called and texted every few weeks with something random and meaningless just to start up a conversation. If I respond by answering the nonsense question he asks he then turns that into him telling me that he's finally got his life in order and is trying to figure out his feelings. Well my dear...Im sorry it has taken you 6 months to figure out how fantastic I am and that you screwed up by leaving but you're a little later because I don't care. I can't begin to tell you how many times I have told him I am over him in any romantic way and he still doesn't give up!!
Ever sense I've become thrilled with being single and over dating anyone, I've been meeting so many great guys and having random fun trips planned out of the blue. Its all fun while it lasts but its so hard for me to not look at them and think they're going to be like the last one that came around. I know that you can't take past relationships and feelings from past experiences into new ones because then you're bound to set yourself up for failure. I just am not having any expectations for any man that is coming into my life in the new future because I'm just over dealing with them. I don't need to be showered with gifts, paraded around town, spend every waking second with someone to feel special...all I want is for someone is to be nice to me, show me respect and actually appreciate that fact that you have me. The only man who has ever made me feel like that is my father...that shit better change quickly or I am out.
